Free Time

(...I just did it!)

I know nobody cares about me yet
But emphasis on the yet, I guess
I’m not gonna show anyone this song
‘Cause every time I think you’ll like it, I’m wrong
I’ll give it to the ones that only see me through a filter
The people that are close are just hazards covered in glitter
They never even tell me that it sucks, they just ignore me
Like, oh my, oh my god, am I really that boring? (Holy shit!)

I’d expect that you’d be cheering me on
But when I look into the crowd, your loving face is gone

I hope you hear this one and take it all the way home
I hope you realize what you say tears me up more than you know
You know, all I wanna do is play you songs and put on a cool show
Now everything you say tears me up more that you will know

It’s been a rough day, rough week, rough month, whatever
There’s a thousand different ways to say “under the weather”
It’s like you’re busy till your favorite artist drops new shit
You drop your filled up schedule to listen to it (Damn, that’s cold.)
And while I’m out here struggling to get people to see
It’s always who I wanna trust that’s stepping on me
I care just a little too much about what my circle thinks
But then I lift my head up and I see no one here with me (Damn!)

I’d expect that you’d be cheering me on
But when I look into the crowd, your loving face is gone

I hope you hear this one and take it all the way home
I hope you realize what you say tears me up more than you know
You know, all I wanna do is play you songs and put on a cool show
Now everything you say tears me up more than you will know

You’ll regret it when I’m too good for you
You’ll hit me up like I used to want you to
Talking about the “Let’s hang out.” and “Can I get a feature?”
“I’ve been writing all year and I’m a damn good singer.”
I’ll hit you with the “Sorry, but I don’t have time.”
“I’ve got a show tomorrow night.”
And that’s why you’ll care one day when I’m never speaking to your face
You’ll look back on what you could’ve had wishing you never gave me space (Oh! He really said it! Wow, he went there.)

Now everything you say tears me up more than you will know