The Letter of the Suicide

[VERSE 1]
They keep asking what killed me
I tell them it's ambition
But what if the answer is
A bad nutrition?
If it's right or wrong
I couldn't care less
I'm long gone from this world
That's why I'm feeling blessed
I've left everybody that I held dear
The last gift from me was a waterfall of tears
And I know that all their fears have come true because of me
Yet they claim it was so selfish of me
What they lack is perspective
Of being objective - they can only be subjective
But they were also the selfish ones
If they couldn't understand the state of my mind

[CHORUS]
With the weapon in my hand
I was ready to attack
I marched towards my fears
There was no coming back
I needed to take a break
From the life I was living
So I could separate
Suffocating from breathing

[VERSE 2]
The god has stripped me of my right to decide
If I wanted to be born and it hurts my pride
If he's so loving and caring for his child
Then why did he make him live among the wild?
We focus on getting better
So hard that we don't care about the weather
All we do is chase the money but we forget the
Life we should value but does it really matter?
No one understood me
No one even cared for me
No one tried to cool me
No one even stood for me
I claimed the right he took away from me
So for once somebody could listen to me
If I didn't have the chance to choose when to start
At least let me decide when to fall apart

[CHORUS]
With the weapon in my hand
I was ready to attack
I marched towards my fears
There was no coming back
I needed to take a break
From the life I was living
So I could separate
Suffocating from breathing

[VERSE 3]
I'm getting high every night before I go to bed
I grab my joint, light it up and pray
That my demons won't visit me tonight
'Cause they're something I can't fight
I'm getting spanked every night by the life itself
I feel my ass is bruised every now and then
Sometimes I sit down and I feel the pain
Piercing through my body and my brain
I'm getting slapped every night so I can't get drunk
I think it's better than being constantly spanked
My cheeks are hurting but I can think forward
Asking for death is not for cowards
I'm getting stabbed every night by my dearest friend
He doesn't know how much I want it all to end
He looks at me confused while holding a knife
Why? I allowed him to take my life

[CHORUS]
With the weapon in my hand
I was ready to attack
I marched towards my fears
There was no coming back
I needed to take a break
From the life I was living
So I could separate
Suffocating from breathing

[OUTRO]
With the weapon in my hand
I was ready to attack
I marched towards my fears
There was no coming back
I needed to take a break
From the life I was living
So I could separate
Suffocating from breathing