Happy Thoughts

On the outside, I’m seeming bright
While I’m hiding my face in the darkness of the night
You can feel my emptiness arising
But what you can’t see is the real me
I hide behind within the depths of my mind
I can feel you digging deep for more

What did you find?
Besides abusive crimes

Try to reach for the hand of hope in the sky
Try to believe that everyone has a chance in life
I can’t take this anymore, I’m starting to rot straight through my core
I can’t do anything but cry

Happy thoughts are meant to save the day
But it’s kind of hard when you need pills to make them stay
Where’s the life I was promised from the start
There’s no such thing as a proper suicide
Well there’s no such as a happy life
I no longer feel the need to cry

It’s time to say goodbye
Before the end of the night, But first I’ll
Try to reach for the hand of hope in the sky
Try to believe that everyone has a chance in life
I can’t take this anymore, I’m starting to rot straight through my core
I can’t do anything but die

There’s no time for fear
God is with me here
I push the gas
I run through that bright red light
Past all of my mistakes
I feel the shattered glass from their headlights
Why am I, Why am I still alive
I just want, I just want to die

Happy thoughts are meant to save the day
Happy thoughts have gone away
Happy thoughts they’ve got nothing to say
Happy thoughts stuck rotting in decay