Comfortable Skin

Before you even open the door,
I've run through each scenario 100x or more,
I'm lost and beaten like prisoner of war,
Despite the fact that I've been here a million times before

I think I've finally become a dinosaur,
The finest things in my life, I just can't find em anymore,
The negative vibes I used to easily ignore,
Are twisting my insides, like I'm rotting to the core

Who takes the blame for rust? Is it metal or the oxygen?
It's so hard to regain trust, when you shut me out, before I begin,
I know you're just to feel disgust, my head's up but I'll take it on the chin,
Take your time I'm in no rush, Cause its never too late, to be what I might have been

My old stomping grounds are all now overrun,
Im keepin myself away from the things I used to do for fun,
I've made it in the world, But I don't feel like I've won,
Cause the bridges I torched along the way can never be undone

I've shut the friends out who gave a fuck what I'd become,
When women opened their hearts each time, I'd up and run,
Come and give me your worst, But I'm already numb,
Cause I've had to look my kids in the eyes, and confess what I've done.

Who takes the blame for rust? Is it metal or the oxygen?
It's so hard to regain trust, when you shut me out, before I begin,
I know you're just to feel disgust, my head's up but I'll take it on the chin,
Take your time I'm in no rush, Cause its never too late, to be what I might have been