Not Numb (feat. Eric Ever)

A veses yo no puethe ni penar
Sicatrice gue nuqava a sanar
Pero mi dios que me vaia mi giar
Ooh yeah
Bittersweet memories
Tend to make recipes from my melodies
Bends and breaks family like they're enemies
But the truth that I speak isn't friendly
I said when I leave she'll never see
Me again, while I exit so cleverly
Empathy's tryna sneak in so carefully
Inevitably it'll enter like destiny
Petty things, I get mad for petty things
Supposedly, but trigger me and I'll shoot a queen
Telling our jeans to tell me while you never ring
Me a call gets me petty, gives me heavy wings
If I don't answer it's a fucking death penalty
If I don't help they will never depend on me
But if I depend on them I'll be helpless endlessly
So I say Fuck It, then they say my drug is pride as if it's ecstasy
A veses yo no puethe ni penar
Sicatrice gue nuqava a sanar
Pero mi dios que me vaia mi giar
Ooh yeah
I'm hoping she don't die while I'm still bitter
Tryna cause timbers to memories that choke to hinder
Her mind's a cinder
Block, thinking she's a perfect liver
Inners hurting while she covers up her purpose in her
She shit talks on these ripped jeans but I don't give her
Any fucks, any pleads any service, dinner
She loves being so cold, like she versus winter
She's worse than splinters, keep your boundary cuz she's a hypocrite
And I'm a mother fucking bitter prick, never bit my lip
Always spoke what I felt, never filtered shit
Maybe I should've dialed down all the shit I've spit
Never like to be soft but I soften quick
If I can't heal from the pain this tribulation created
I'll bleed on knives that never penetrated my sanctions
I'll be a slave to my anger, Sindy's collaboration
And when she dies I'll be alive to say I ain't forgave this
I used to think I was numb to all of this
But really I just shut myself down
And became used to it
I always felt the pain
I just ignored it
Because my feelings were ignored
And I began to ignore them
And someone else's
Who never deserved it
And I refuse to stay this way
A veses yo no puethe ni penar
Sicatrice gue nuqava a sanar
Pero mi dios que me vaia mi giar
Ooh yeah