Optimal

[Verse 1]
I know that it's here to stay
But I'm trying to get away through pain
Does anything mean anything?
But I'm stuck here trying to heal again

[Pre-Chorus 1]
Not ideal, not your rose colored lens
Am I cynical or real again?
Not ideal, not your rose colored lens
I just need to feel alive every now and then

[Chorus]
I want something to die for so I can love again
Scared that I won't be able to look above again

[Verse 2]
And they will all leave
Attachment is pain, love is death
Loneliness is all the same

[Pre-Chorus 2]
Please help me find something that makes me feel alive
That gives me a reason to not be afraid to die

[Chorus]
I want something to die for so I can love again
Scared that I won't be able to look above again

[Outro]
I see the smoke in front of me
I feel the warmth again
I hope it doesn't kill me
'Cause loneliness will