Pain Now

Played Out
I've got to find a way out
I'm feeling weighed down
Too focused on the pain now

I keep on running back and forth
Running back to where I was before
(thoughts I can't ignore)
I've got theses loses on my mind,
Feeling stuck burnt out in overdrive

I don't think you know what it means to want to be the baddest mutha fukka outta this scene
I think you're outta your means, I've gotta but ain't nothing for free
I don't think you know what it means to have a hundred other dudes who wanna be just like me
Feel a lot pressure building but I'll handle with ease
I watched you fumble everyday that's the one I'll never achieve

I gotta
Keep doing what I know is best for me
I don't you think you can run with me
I wish I could feel differently

But now I'm sitting here in dread
Watching the time slip through my hands
Emotions always thinly spread
I wish they held more weight instead (I wish they made more sense instead)

I don't think you know
I don't think you know (wouldn't let you know)
Cuz the realest move in silence
I'm not looking for no violence
I can put you in your place if you feeling like you really wanna try it

I guess it's hard for me
To find the room to breath
Lungs at capacity
Filled up with apathy (no room for apathy)