i hate c-span

What a scary place to be
When you love who you fear
Wide-eyed in the backseat
With a psycho at the wheel
With bloodshot eyes, he says “enjoy the ride”
‘Cause it gets him off to see you scared for your life

He always wants your loyalty
He wants a price eventually

Oh, this is bigger than me
Oh, the truth sets you free
Love and terror have a deeper meaning now
Oh, the truth sets you free

Moved to California
Who’d have thought I’d find a home
Change my name and block his calls
Wrote poetry alone
The more my therapist tells me
The angrier I get
‘Cause I really, really don’t wanna believe
That you were always, always, always a threat

You hate yourself so you hate me
And I don’t owe you anything

Oh, this is bigger than me
Oh, the truth sets you free
Love and terror have a deeper meaning now
Oh, the truth sets you free

Oh, the truth will set you free
Oh, the truth will set you free

Still like a bomb
Quiet like a virus
Manipulating sisters into silence
You cut me open,
Scream “God, what a mess!’
Always the victim while you stand on our necks
I won’t drink your poison anymore
The one you say I’m ungrateful for
I won’t shrink and starve my common sense
To be a member of your cult of innocence
Covert narcissist on defense
Tell me where your humanity went

Oh, this is bigger than me
Oh, the truth sets you free
Love and terror have a deeper meaning now
Oh, the truth sets you free