SURFIN' (Freestyle)

Now I know that it might seem like I'm not doing a lot
Put some water in it, now something grew in the pot
I'd be lying if I said I wasn't moving through the plot
You can see how I glow when the whole crew drop
I've been tryna move far, far away from the thoughts in my brain, self doomin' a lot
Now I have times when the self doubt gets too loud and I can't figure out how I'm gonna move about
I've been trying to stay awake, I've been trying to vacate
Lately I've been watching everything that's coming out my mouth
And I know the ones I wanna relate to, they can be fake too, everything I do is from the heart
'Cause it gets too hard when everyone you know is trying to be a star
Only get so far when your rhymes ain't hard
But nowadays, that don't even matter, that's not the hard part
Need to take a closer look at what's happening, everybody rap but everybody capping
Ain't nobody wanna put the work in they just wanna be the captain
Don't know what's happening , I've been tapped in
Look around like what a time to be alive, and people who ain't ever had a job want a
Piece of pie, the stakes is high, I've been tryna keep my distance the snakes in my life
I promised my Grandma nothing diminish my light, If you really wanna know bout how I'm living my life
I take it day by day, I keep my faith
'Cause I can't trust nobody anyway
I wouldn't have it any other way
I'm rapping from a place, my headspace has been set ablaze by new mistakes
I keep my same frame as back in the day
I never wanted to be juggling fame
Could have a million followers but in real life you a lame
And that's one thing I acknowledged when I became Baby J.
I've been praying for the people that are playing with my name
Like no baby, that is not me baby
Look around I ain't like everybody on the scene baby
I actually have something to say
All these other rappers just sound the same
At this point I just feel like the industry lame
And I don't want no part of it, tired of bargaining, all of its a popularity game
Taking a shot then they taking a shot at the five second hot seat spot at the fame
That's how we living don't expect a change
We all gotta just adapt to the ways
I just been surfin' out here on my wave, Baby