Fake

The nigga I rap 'bout's the nigga I wanna be
Niggas is not how they rap, so apologies
Everything I do is so they can honour me
Find someone genuine, that's a commodity
Wanting to leave this shit, I feel that quarterly
Dropping the bullshit, never done that properly
I guess the parts that I hate still a part of me
I wonder if I'll ever get on top of me
I've spent my whole life
And I mean my whole life
Tryna do shit exactly like the greats does it
Copying the effect of a cause
Don't make you become the cause that brought that effect
Does it?
It's lame that I does it
It's lame that I fuss it
They say that was great, and then I wonder "Was it?"
A part of me loves it
Like when the mask does fit
I think of a joke that is fake, and I buss it
I'm tryna think of a time
I didn't do something to get something
But I'm just wondering when
I told them I wouldn't do it
But in time you forget what you said
So I did it again
God, please tell me what the fuck is a friend
See you growing, now they have to pretend
They don't want you back how you were back then
Or they'll just laugh now you're not one of them
Split down the middle, I'm rocking in tension
What side am I on? That's always a question
Wait all my life for divine intervention
Didn't help myself by the way, did I mention?
A part of me wishes
That I could just ditch this
But when I'm not in this
I know I will miss this
Don't ask for forgiveness
I handle my business
I live in the trenches
This just a few inches
The nigga I rap 'bout's the nigga I wanna be
Niggas is not how they rap, so apologies
Everything I do is so they can honour me
Find someone genuine, that's a commodity
Wanting to leave this shit, I feel that quarterly
Dropping the bullshit, never done that properly
I guess the parts that I hate still a part of me
I wonder if I'll ever get on top of me
The nigga I rap 'bout's the nigga I wanna be
Niggas is not how they rap, so apologies
Everything I do is so they can honour me
Find someone genuine, that's a commodity
Starting to see that even I don't order me
See through my shit, and now I'm getting bored of me
Do shit I don't agree with, that ain't odd of me
Catch me at peace with myself, that's an oddity