Circus Heart

And so here I am
Between lights of every colour
Breaking down again for no particular reason
The ghost of an audience still in my mind

And I know you can still see me
But I still question how real my flesh is
How tangible my spirit stays
Maybe I could have done something more
To make you stay
To make you love me
Like I so desperately desire
Perhaps I've overstayed my welcome

Be still, my circus heart
That performs for no one
All the time
Bе still, for there is only silencе now

And as expected, it's the end
You leave me helpless yet again
Was I a fool for having believed in you
For thinking that I was worth the feeling
Or anything at all

Oh Augustine, look what you did to me

An infinite perfomer
Changing songs like pale faces
Born to pretend
And feel strange in most spaces
Bleeding on stage to be loved and aplauded
Because all I ever wanted was to be seen and acknowleded
All I ever wanted was friends
All I ever wanted

But no matter what
I still remain
And as long as I shall live
Then the show, my friend, must go on