Sky Blue And Teal

Sink back into my chair whenever I see him
It's not fair, I'll never be him
Why couldn't you just accept my character flaws
Now my mind's surrounded by noisy seas, and ravager wars
Now every time I sleep I start having thoughts
Every time I breathe I feel so lost
Every day I must live through is torture
Every place I go I wonder if I'm on the roster
Every idea that's productive, fails to foster
Every piece of work I finish, what's the product?
Why dear, mind near, failure, saviour
None in sight, some insight, could not find, it's not right
When I met you, I thought we had a connection
Then you had to go and steal my sense of direction
Life's meant to be walked with, with a partner
But you left your mark on it, and ruined the artwork

Don't leave me
Leave me like this
Don't leave me
To fight like this
I'll never recover but I'll cope
I'll never find another but I hope
That the hole in my heart will heal
Clean up drops of sky blue and teal

If it happened, it happened, I admit it
But why won't you just let me forget it?
Am I flashing, blinding, or plain invisible
If you drag my friend into it, it's not permissible
You exchanged letters with him the next time we met
And I didn't exist for you, so which one of us was the secret?
What did you do to our rituals?
Now I just get to keep the residuals
I stare in the face of the days and I say
I don't care, I'm unfazed, cuz another's on the way
But I can't, trust the fact, may not come, or it may
If I feel, I should quit, then I shall, I shall lay
Legacy, does it matter, destiny, what's the craze?
Bones rattle, skin shivers, heart pumps, muscles shake
Will I shatter, core of earth, or just lay, at the mantle
I'll just say, I was cursed, and I will quit if I can't handle so

Don't leave me
Leave me like this
Don't leave me
To fight like this
I'll never recover but I'll cope
I'll never find another but I hope
That the hole in my heart will heal
Clean up drops of sky blue and teal

Every day is blending into the next, it's not suitable
Cuz not every gradient is beautiful
Breaking hearts are your most salient feature
I can only do so much, but life's your biggest teacher
You said you was ruined. Show me where 
You got two shots and you blew it, it's only fair
But you landed up with him, why you crying?
You should be laughing every day by the way you lying
Every now and then you just greet me with silence
It spreads like venom - jealousy, defiance
I was just a little matchstick for you
For lighting your candle and be left alone and "blew"
To be thrown aside, forgotten and charred
Remains of a guy who's frozen and scarred
I still roam aimlessly, believe me,
My dreams still replay the words "don't leave me"

Don't leave me
Leave me like this
Don't leave me
To fight like this
I'll never recover but I'll cope
I'll never find another but I hope
That the hole in my heart will heal
Clean up drops of sky blue and teal