Black Notebook

My mind was playing on repeat
I could no longer separate what was real
From my own strong will to feel
That everything was fine

I decided to write down my
Endless thoughts on paper
To try to make everything
Seem a little clearer

I found a little black notebook
On top of my refrigerator
I started ripping out the pages
That I'd already used
I tore them apart - I needed a fresh start

And then I read some notes I
Made last year in October
There they were - the same phrases
I've been repeating over and over

Let's go deeper i wanna go deeper
I wanna be the best I can be with you
I wanna feel free i wanna be me
I wanna be the best I can be with you

Real change might take what turns
And when you think you moved on
You still need a little time
To really come around
And the naked truth to release the mind
When I read those notes I
Made last year in October
I realised I've been losing my
Dream over and over

Let's go deeper i wanna go deeper
I wanna be the best I can be with you
I wanna feel free i wanna be me
I wanna be the best I can be with you