With Me

Would spend my days still in the past
Dissect what I did or didn't say
Could shut me up again so fast
Pack it up for a rainy day

I don't feel that way anymore
Can't stand to lose my own control

I hold my breath and count to ten
I hate I'm in this place again
I'm moving forward one step back
While I'm with me 'til I lose track
I promise you that I'm still whole
I was back then or so I'm told
I'm moving forward one step back
While I'm with me 'til I lose track

The way it used to eat me alive
I am reminded now and again
Each night feels like a test drive
No, I'm not cured but let's begin

I don't feel that way anymore
Can't stand to lose my own control

I hold my breath and count to ten
I hate I'm in this place again
I'm moving forward one step back
While I'm with me 'til I lose track
I promise you that I'm still whole
I was back then or so I'm told
I'm moving forward one step back
While I'm with me 'til I lose track