Fading

I guess its time to get used too
Pain creeping in my brain like it used too
Love never feel the same it used too
Feelings down the drain
Man
I swear im getting used too

Always feeling this way
Hate it
But what can I say
Man
I feel like im fading away
I feel like my life reaches death every day
But
What can I do
Where can I run
Who can save me from this hurt thats begun
Who can love me as a prodigal son
A product of sin thats already upon
Damn
I feel like im fading
I feel like im already tainted

Theres no hope of return
No hope of me saving

I wish these markings would fade
I wish I didn't have visible pain
Every time that their seen
Man that judgment is vague
Man get out the way
I don't need your thought
They remind me of troubling days

The times that I cried
And the times that I wished
I was fading away

I see it in the mirror
I hear it every where I go
Man that shit looking ugly
So why would you do it
Im stupid
I know
Whats the matter with me
Why do these emotions control

Man gimme a smoke or a drink
So im faded as dark as my soul

Im fading I know
Im fading
Im fading
I know

Man gimme the bottle
Im drinking as deep as my sorrows will go

Im fading I know
Im fading
Im fading
I know

Man gimme a light
Im smoking until I feel nothing at all