I’m Checking Out

Not now, there's somewhere that I need to be
I'm sorry but I need to leave

I have to gather strength to move my heart to feel when you speak
(I should have called)
The world's been at your back, I should have reached out but I just waited for weeks
(It was so easy)

I've been busy, I've been stacking up excuses
In lieu of time spent or words meant or eyes
That can still hold your gaze in the silence
I've been trying to sync our breathing
In the hope of connection again
The air catches, is this it?
I don't know

I'm sorry, there's someone that I used to be