Deep End

I don't know why I can't swim to the deep end
I lash out in the end, it's a secret
What my mind might've thought at of repeating
Out loud, but my voice in the deepest
Depth so far, it feels like I'm nearing
But no words come out cause I'm speechless
Why did my mouth not
speak? That's the reason why I lost my mind in the deep end
Driving fast- I can't even look down when I'm thinking
Illusions 'bout finding a new world that's intriguing
Time's up, but this end feels like new beginnings
What would you do when you have all that you've been dreaming?
Not slowing down, feeling everything, in need of calling
Restlessness, 'cause my soul is searching for belonging
Thinking I can stop the world in an instance
And when I'm deep, I hope i don't have words that linger
Not slowing down, feeling everything, in need of answers
Restlessness, 'cause my mind is searching for responses
How do I tell you I care in one sentence?
How do I go back, not in my mind, but in person?
I don't know why I can't swim to the deep end
I lash out in the end, it's a secret
What my mind might've thought at of repeating
Out loud, but my voice in the deepest
Depth so far, it feels like I'm nearing
But no words come out cause I'm speechless
Why did my mouth not
speak? That's the reason why I lost my mind in the deep end
I don't know why I can't swim to the deep end
I lash out in the end, it's a secret
What my mind might've thought at of repeating
Out loud, but my voice in the deepest
Depth so far, it feels like I'm nearing
But no words come out cause I'm speechless
Why did my mouth not
speak? That's the reason why I lost my mind in the deep end
I don't know why I can't swim to the deep end
I lash out in the end, it's a secret
What my mind might've thought at of repeating
Out loud, but my voice in the deepest
Depth so far, it feels like I'm nearing
But no words come out cause I'm speechless
Why did my mouth not
speak? That's the reason why I lost my mind in the deep end