T.S.O.W

Can we go in the car real quick we need to talk

All i ever wanted was to keep it real
Ever since all of my pride was just shot and killed
Akil broke up wit me he said that he had problems so fuck it im bout to go take my pills

Fuck school
Goin out with the other dude akil aint like
Start of a school year and theres been three fights
My class my be lit
I went to english and i sat in the back
Why
To my left there was the whackiest guy
Turns out he was in a group chat i was in because if my boyfriend
Immediately we clicked
And over time we would be so close wed say shit that was non of our business
I gravitated toward him he was funny
Hed make the whole class laugh sometimes but id laugh the most running with jokes
Thats so stupid to the whole group but the lore of it had us two
Always sitting back cracking up in the corner we would skip class
Wlk around the halls talk about whack, funny, bad, ugly
Even stuff thats dramatic but a smile on my face was the outcome
He began complimenting me on my outfits
Tbh i loved it i couldnt jus walk around it he had something about him he had a girl
Wait had?
Your name is davinci so mona lisa aint be da one u dun dreamed of

But this feeling in my gut it started coming to the surface
Id swipe up on his snaps about his abs the shit was workin
But i backed because im with my boyfriend wait i got a text
The next day i came in class it was bad
But before i could put my head on the desk in sadness he hugged me
The first time in moths that i was blushing

Time flew and we was skippin class seniors in high school we aint do shit
He asked if i wanted to chill i said sure he prolly thought
I was gonna bluff but at lunch we dipped down to his house i wasted no time i went right to his bed
Shit i aint even realize i was jus movin and so was he
We started doing things that was fuckin crazy and thats
When i knew that we was hiding something deep that i cant explain maybe u can in a better way
Naz

All i ever wanted was to keep it real
Ever since all of my pride was jus shot

Feel like i got alot of shit i got all bottled in i keep inside and i wanna get it off my chest
I been dealing wit alot of women but wit u its different u be killin the rest
We be startin off as friends and nothing ever changed until u came up into my
Room im confused now

Damn girl its been a long time comin
Cuz of us, i been in fights while blunted
Because of us i never been so insecure about a bitch while fuckin
Until u told me i was nothing to fuck wit
That aside before of us i never thought about sleepin and never wakin up
Thought of reachin my limit and filling my cup
Thinkin its jus a phase and once again we sayin we love each other but still u wit yo man so what

Maybe im too weak to leave u alone
Feelings might surface
Maybe im too scared to realize i was always worthless vice versa
So i write verses
Questioning if i should push u away
Cause when i see u i be happy but i be hurt everyday
People dont look at me the same
Shit im the only one to blame
The outcast in da group wit a famous rapper in his name
Hopin the same girl lovin her dude could only love me same
And when we fuck
No answers came
Only u did
My dick soft sometimes tru shit
Cause theres conflict
Some niggas say let go go find a new bitch
This love triangle is fierce as fuck as the group calls it and your better than a rebound nig
I knew this
But this is where a nigga gets stupid
Its not eem bout the pussy its who she is we was close it was so natural
Makin shit so bright when we walkin down the blackets road
Hate circulating
But caint penetrate
This great chemistry im tellin u this in the car u know its tru aint it
We try to be friends but can never stay away back to the same shit
Back to feelin this cravin u on facetime masturbatin sayin how i treat u so well
How im so big and u cant take it
Then reality caves in
Hol up im drakin

U right its raining

Dont take this to heart im jus expressing
Im as confused as u are, shit i aint got all the answers
Akil said u were a distraction maybe this what he meant
We joke around but real shits in my head and if u listening i love u
This karma comin thru i take it
Akil was cheated on but now im givin pain in the same way that i felt it hypocritical
Pretty selfish but apart of me is sayin they aint give a fuck
So why should i but thats my inner darkness and here we are, present day
U dun came
Mental strain
I wont play the victim
Nigga struggling to find a method for da kid to fix it
Foggy windshield
Wet seats
We about done
(I want to)
Feel yo love
And once again this question is in our head spiraling
Now what

Story of woman