Tired

I'm dozing off, I need a snooze
I'm frozen, but my thoughts stay on the move
I take too long to leave my room
One day I'll see the sun and not the moon
But for now don't see the use
I'm feeling blue and out of juice
So I guess I'm feeling orange like when you go and squeeze the fruit
Yeah, my smile's sweet but I feel sour, too
My jaw locks when I need to choose
What I really want but I don't have the power to
I'm spouting fumes, I cloud my view
The hours flew to Kalamazoo
Feels like I'm in the toilet and I'm brown in hue
Sometimes I doubt what I'm amounting to
Just want someone to say I'm proud of you
Don't know my future let the fountain choose
Or I could take charge and turn to powder blue
I tend to hide my feelings like the cowards do
Shove them back in my head and let them all get lost in a crowded room
I want my mind to go to sleep
So I don't think about the broken things
I guess that would be my only dream
I see an opening, to make some change in my life
I do it hopelessly
I want my mind to go to sleep
So I don't think about the broken things
I guess that would be my only dream
I see an opening, to make some change in my life
I do it hopelessly
I'm running out of energy
The emptiness wants to enter me
I need a lift from this lethargy
I need a boost to be a better me
I think that I'm my only enemy I wish that I could set him free
It's bad to hold a grudge, at least that's what the mirror said to me
I try to chase him down, but he keeps pedaling
I guess I'll let him run and I'll keep settling
I wake up late I should've stayed asleep
I'm dozing off because they hate my dreams
It takes so much for me to say the things I really want
And then they make me freeze
Think about reality, not make-believe
Cover up my face and then I take a beat
And try to calm down but it won't change for me
I was born with this dream, it isn't Maybelline
I get caught up I'm always late to eat
I didn't mean to, but my mind can go astray for weeks
My momma tells me that she prays for me
I pay for therapy but pain is free
I know the change won't happen steadily
But I'll still get from A to B
I'm sleeping readily 'til something's waking me
'Cuz at the end of 2017
I though that I'd be happy now
But I'm still waiting patiently
I want my mind to go to sleep
So I don't think about the broken things
I guess that would be my only dream
I see an opening, to make some change in my life
I do it hopelessly
I want my mind to go to sleep
So I don't think about the broken things
I guess that would be my only dream
I see an opening, to make some change in my life
I do it hopelessly