In the Deep

I don't know
What I need
Take a chance
Come with me
I don't know
What I'll be
So let's dance
In the deep

I know I'm obsessive compulsive
Try not to get so possessive controlling
But when I ask questions, I guess it's repulsive
It makes you sick like excessive convulsing
Love on me now but I'm betting it's only
A matter of time 'fore you don't wanna hold me
Trapped in my mind and it's getting so lonely
I saw the devil and let it in slowly
If your girlfriend still loved her abuser
And flipped when she thought you'd accused her
Of not being faithful then threaten you'd lose her
And yell at you for any sex you'd refuse her
I bet you'd lose your mind a few times over
Bet you'd wake up hoping that her life's over
Wish your memory could skip right over
Every thought of her so you wouldn't cry over
The thought of every single guy who might choke her
And how she couldn't spend a single night sober
But now I can't either so I might go for
Another fake smile, say goodnight, joker

I was broken down so my mind's in shambles
Too afraid to take another gamble
Tried a time or two, but I couldn't handle
Just a quick flame that used me up like candles

What do I want
What do I feel
I ask myself
Is it real
Then my mind goes
On a trip
Feels like time froze
Where's my grip

I don't know
What I need
Take a chance
Come with me
I don't know
What I'll be
So let's dance
In the deep
I don't know
What I need
Take a chance
Come with me
I don't know
What I'll be
So let's dance
In the deep

I hope you've never been gaslit
You question yourself and you'll always be asking
What did I do wrong and it turns you passive
You won't be yourself and then you'll start relapsing
To the wrong path, socio or psycho
That's what she was so I think I might know
What it's like to wonder why she's sweet like glyco
When an hour ago she was ready to fight though
Just the type to manipulate
If I didn't cry, I thought I didn't break
I would waste my time, just sit and wait
For the fuse to light, but it didn't make
Any more sense than it did the time previous
Do you know how much I thought about leaving this?
Always been questioning why she's so devious
Maybe the whole time she'd always been scheming it

I just wish that I could get past all of my old trials
Everyone says it'll heal but that it takes a while
So, for now I'll push it to the back and fake a smile
In reality I am in anguish and denial

What do I want
What do I feel
I ask myself
Is it real
Then my mind goes
On a trip
Feels like time froze
I just slipped

I don't know
What I need
Take a chance
Come with me
I don't know
What I'll be
So let's dance
In the deep