Half Crazy

What you see in front of you is how you gotta take me
Always move alone, I ain't got no one to save me
Been daydreaming, you think I got lazy
Got it in my head, so I'm going half crazy

If you've been alone
Then you know what it's like to get in a zone
Where you can't even go
Outside your home
Looking for somebody just to give you hope
But if you've been tryna get past it
I wanna let you know that the effort isn't pointless
Even if you find yourself asking
How could anybody wanna come and join this

I'm just tryna get past all my troubles
Drinking liquor 'til I'm seeing double
Wake up gonna find me the rubble
Snapped but I ain't even in the huddle
Pulling me out of the dirt, but when I come up they only see ashes
Know that I done scorched the earth, but now my memory comes back in flashes
Seeing it for what it's worth, but now reality has to come crashing
Knocking me off of my path, tryna make sure that I know what whiplash is
Playing for all that I earned, hoping I learned when I needed cash in
Knocking me right on my ass, trying to heal but I can't close these gashes

Lay awake, wishing that anyone would find me
Stay the same, no I don't care about the timing
Couldn't wait, but it's so hard to jump in blindly
Never change, no one can silence what's inside me

What you see in front of you is how you gotta take me
Always move alone, I ain't got no one to save me
Been daydreaming, you think I got lazy
Got it in my head, so I'm going half crazy
What you see in front of you is how you gotta take me
Always move alone, I ain't got no one to save me
Been daydreaming, you think I got lazy
Got it in my head, so I'm going half crazy

Just a young man with a troubled soul
People take advantage, wanna take control
When they see your heart, what makes you whole
Pick it all apart, watch it unroll
Try to act like everything is gold
See the silver lining where the others see mold
Looking for the best cuz that's what I was told
But momma, some of these people just cold.

Thought I was doing my purpose, but I was just hurting
Holding my nerves in and nobody heard it
Cuz I had been searching alone, wondering if it was worth it to go
Back on my plan and reverse it, could I tell my parents that I wasn't certain
But now I'm just yearning to know,
Could I make an earning with flow, try 'til the curtains are closed

Gotta have faith so I don't stop believing
I'm on my path, I'll never leave it
Chasing my dreams got me bobbing and weaving
Defeat my demons they see me succeeding
Writing these rhymes when I should be sleeping
I stay awake cuz my mind's in the deep end
Or halfway away but it's trying to creep in
Mom saw my pain, and it had her weeping

Lay awake, stuck here drowning in the sorrow
Stay the same, that's what it's like to set the bar low
Couldn't wait, I've got no hours left to borrow
Never change, cuz I don't care about tomorrow

What you see in front of you is how you gotta take me
Always move alone, I ain't got no one to save me
Been daydreaming, you think I got lazy
Got it in my head, so I'm going half crazy
What you see in front of you is how you gotta take me
Always move alone, I ain't got no one to save me
Been daydreaming, you think I got lazy
Got it in my head, so I'm going half crazy
What you see in front of you is how you gotta take me
Always move alone, I ain't got no one to save me
Been daydreaming, you think I got lazy
Got it in my head, so I'm going half crazy