Ceramic Hopes

Some days I'm
So hopeless
Alone and
I'm broken
I wait to be over the pain
But it's hard to change so I hope I don't stay here
Some days I
Crack slowly
Ceramic hopes
Get broken
I pray to be over the pain
But it's hard to wait so I hope I don't stay here
Always try to push through it
Doing something stupid
Act like I'm improving
Block it out like I've been hooping
But I'm crumbling like Cubans
Or the ground that's under Q*Bert
I'm doing these maneuvers
In my mind so I don't lose it
When I'm falling in the ash tray
Cuz that'll make the gash stay
Longer than it should because the last day
I was left in pieces I felt like I was in last place
Growing dealing with my past weight
That held me down now I'm halfway
Back to where I used to be, I wanna win my race
Hard to tell my mood I bet you see it in my face
Try to stop the losing so I'm back to splitting eights
I've been down like Uzi but I'm dodging hits like Chase
But they never knew the pain I hide
I can't choose to make the light
Show up on my moon cuz it ain't taking sides
When I cry alone in my room I just wait for my
Head to be soothed so I can be myself and wake my mind
Some days I'm
So hopeless
Alone and
I'm broken
I wait to be over the pain
But it's hard to change so I hope I don't stay here
Some days I
Crack slowly
Ceramic hopes
Get broken
I pray to be over the pain
But it's hard to wait so I hope I don't stay here
One day I'll be over all of this misery
Right now I'm broken can't wait 'til it's history
My wounds are blistering, breaking right open
My heart was fissuring leaving me hopeless
Some days I'm
So hopeless
Alone and
I'm broken
I wait to be over the pain
But it's hard to change so I hope I don't stay here
Some days I
Crack slowly
Ceramic hopes
Get broken
I pray to be over the pain
But it's hard to wait so I hope I don't stay here
My wounds are blistering, breaking right open
My heart was fissuring leaving me hopeless