Deep Nausea

This feels like it's too big for words
But it's a part of me
I feel like I need to shut down
I wish I could kill my body

Looking in
I feel so hollow and alone
If I could, I'd put myself
Into a story and find home

Is there no one else alive
Who knows this feeling?
This loneliness
Is going to kill me

Looking in on this
I feel so hollow and alone
If I could, I'd put myself
Into a story and find home

Somewhere under the sky
Of a land that no one knows
It's here, in my mind
But description leaves me cold

There are no words
And the aching doesn't go
It feels like nausea
In my stomach, in my soul

There is no life here
There is no life here
There is no life here
There is no life here

Hold my body still and whisper to me
That it's okay that you see what I'm meant to be
Gently touch my skin and tell me you know
Tell me that you can see that place in our souls

Hold my body still and whisper to me
That it's okay that you see what I'm meant to be
Gently touch my skin and tell me you know
Tell me you can see that place in our souls

Lower your head, speak softly into my hair
Say you understand and that someday we'll go there
Kiss my neck, trace your fingers across my skin
Tell me that you know what I mean

There is no life here so please don't
There is no life here so please don't

If I could go back...

I think about those wasted years
The fear and the envy

I can feel my body buckling more every day
I don't wanna go but I need an exit from here now
I feel the expectations of a person who is assumed
To have gone through what you have

But I haven't