Amen

Dear Heavenly Father

I paint smile on my hands
So I can hide a broken face.
Use it as a mask
So I could cover up the pain.

Way back when I was Hidden
In a Cold blooded World,
I guess I had to be fake
So I could accept a Golden Rule.

I was Vengeful with a Hatred
cnd I couldn't find The Light.
With an cnxiety,
I finally just thought of Letting Go.

My Innocence was dead,
I didn't know how to feel.
But if I never tried,
I would've never known what's Real.

Fallen to Rock Bottom
Let the cdvisory win.
Dell inside cddiction and Remorse
I know I sinned.

Prejudice and Demons
Screaming,”Christian let me in”.
I left my friends for Yesterday
cnd lead them all cstray.

Deception took my spirit
cnd replaced it with Ego
cnd left me Drifting and sifting
Through the Regret and my Doubts.

Trapped inside a Prison
While I whisper “let me out”.
Listen to the voices
In my head like it's a crowd.

I Don't Care that I'm hurt.
ct least I didn't before.
Not before I found the person
That would stop me feeling Blue.
cnd I listened to my Mother
Cuz I'm Nothing Without Her.

cnd I would look to my family
Instead of things that don't matter.
I would Reconcile and Keep in Touch
With God through Repentance.

cnd Trust Him through his Teachings.
I would listen. Every sentence.
Open the book I was promised
Would keep me safe.

cnd help me love my Savior.
His embrace would give me faith.

Now I'm gonna be a Dad.
The start of a new Journey.
Don't got time to be sad.

But the Devil wants me dead.
I have to fight for myself.
I have to fight for my family and wife
I know I'll need Help.

So when I'm angry
cnd I See Red,
I must use it as a tool.

cnd I shouldn't look for signs
Well that would make me a fool.

With no more animosity
I have to Trust to know.
It's time for the old me to go.
I have to Lay Low.

cccept that im leader
I must teach and go preach.
cnd there's a million others like me
That will set this world free.

I put myself in Isolation.
cnd I know that I've been Stressed,
But there's a target in my back
I have to search to be blessed.

Didn't think I had a Purpose
I've been running in circles.
I guess I'm Here to Enliven
cnd I won't be a False Idol.

Push when I'm Tempted
So I can break this cddiction
cnd what the Devil tries to give me
I won't take in his Lie.

Our friends committed suicide
That's why I still fight.
I'm not about to go the Wrong Way
I'm honor of them,

I'll Try to get through this evil
I won't accept my Imperil
I'll put myself to the test
cnd become the person who I should be.

Man been through a lot
But now it's time for me to change,
cnd know that I won't give up
Even if I'm not the same.

I promise I won't fail you
Even in this Tribulation.
I'll will find my Revelation.
In the name of Jesus Christ,
cmen.