Soggy Rice

When I was a little kid, my dad would never let me grow my hair out
I always wanted long hair, he said, "No, no son of mine is leaving the house looking like no girl"
Now, I'm twenty-four years old and I got B-cups

I can remember back in 2015 when I started presenting as female
Some kid on my community college campus came up to me and he said, "Yo, can I ask why you're dressed like that?"
And I said, "Oh, yeah, I make electronic music"

One time when I was about four years old, my dad was trying to get me to eat rice for the first time
I didn't like the way that it felt in my mouth and I gagged and regurgitated it and then, he got so pissed, he fucking yelled at me, and he fucking made me eat that shit a second time
He made eat my own fucking vomit
Shit was fucked up
Years later, my garbage disposal broke in my house and I went downstairs to help my roommate's fix it and there was just mushy fucking globs of rice all over the floor and suddenly, I started feeling like I was in severe danger and I was like what the fuck is happening to me?
And then, it donned on me that I'm fucking traumatized and soggy rice is my trigger