가족관계증명서 (Family Portrait)
[에픽하이 "가족관계증명서" ft. 김필 가사]
[Verse 1: Tablo]
내 첫 악기는
아빠가 긴 출장 다녀오며 사준 장난감 오르골
내가 만져본 첫 타자기는
그가 서재에서 깊은 밤마다 두드리던
그래, 내 모든 재능 속엔
그가 양보해준 젊음이
숨 쉬고 있어
삼 남매 연년생인 형과 누나는
눈만 마주쳐도 티격태격
늦둥이 막낸 온 집안을 헤집어대
인상 쓰던 아빠가 이해돼
우리 집은 정적이 쌀만큼 귀했네
이젠
좋은 날 에도
웃음소리 보다 빈자리의 고요가 더 크네
마지막으로 아빠의 야윈 품에 안겨 깨달았지
천국도 나이 드네
[Chorus: Kim Feel]
I don't like who I've become
I don't know who I've become
그저 내가 나라서
참 외로워
날 이해해주는 건
나를 안아주는 건
이젠 아무도 없어
외로워
[Verse 2: Mithra Jin]
난 가끔 생각나
연탄 냄새와 반지하 단칸방
우리 네 식구 첫 울타리
창 하나 없던 어둠 속에서 꿈을 꿨지만
한 이불 아래 누워있던 유일한 시간
늘 가족보다 한 걸음 더 앞서 걷던
아빠의 발걸음은 느릿해져 가네 점점
밥은 잘 챙겨 먹는지
아픈 데는 없는지
하나도 줄지 않았네 엄마의 걱정
항상 텅 빈 집에서 혼자 기다리던
겁많은 동생도 어느새 가장이 돼서
요즘은 거의 딸바보가 다 됐지
나보다 부모 마음을 더 잘 이해하겠지
한 가정이 이제 세 가정이 되고
시끌벅적한 대가족이 돼도
함께 살아온 시간보다 짧겠지
그 시간조차 후회들로 가득 차겠지
[Chorus: Kim Feel]
I don't like who I've become
I don't know who I've become
그저 내가 나라서
참 외로워
날 이해해주는 건
나를 안아주는 건
이젠 나밖에 없어
외로워 oh
[Instrumental Outro]
[Verse 1: Tablo]
My first instrument
Was a toy music box my father brought back from a business trip
The first typewriter I laid hands on
Was the one he would spend late nights in his study typing away at
Yes, inside all of my talents
The youth that he forfeited for them
Is still breathing
We were three siblings, my brother and sister were only a year apart
They'd fight incessantly
And me, the youngest child, would constantly turn our place upside down
I can understand the scowl on my father's face
In our home, silence was as sacrеd as rice
Now
Even in happy times
Thе silence of an empty spot is louder than laughter
The last time I was in his arms, I thought to myself
Even heaven ages
[Chorus: Kim Feel]
I don't like who I've become
I don't know who I've become
Just because I'm me
I'm lonely
The only one who understands me
The only one who comforts me
There is no one left
Lonely, oh
[Verse 2: Mithra Jin]
Sometimes I remember
The smell of coal in a tiny basement home
Our family of four's first shelter
Didn't even have a window and we dreamed in darkness
But it was the only time we were under one blanket
My dad would always walk faster than the rest of us
But now his steps are getting slower
"Are you eating well?"
"Are you staying healthy?"
My mother's worrying haven't decreased
And my younger brother who would wait at home alone scared
Is now the head of a family
He's got a daughter he's crazy over
He probably understands our parents better than me now
One family has now become three
And the family is growing bigger
But the time we have left together may be shorter than the time we had
And even those times may be taken up by regret
[Chorus: Kim Feel]
I don't like who I've become
I don't know who I've become
Just because I'm me
I'm lonely
The only one who understands me
The only one who comforts me
There is no one left
Lonely, oh
[Instrumental Outro]
