reckless heaven

Heaven is knocking at my door
Cause I can't see straight anymore
Reckless fun for reckless nights
And reckless turns my life

Into a living hell, miserable spells
And I simply don't know how it comes to be
But to me it seems like a trajectory of life

Build and break, make and kill
The light which comes naturally, what a time to be with me tonight
And I sit here and think what it must be like to live a life of glory
Peace coming naturally but I stalk these streets tonight

Leave the house cause I simply don't know what its like to show the feelings which I feel
Emotions that I know
The memories I'll never know
Cries come from the attic of my mind

Think back and try to feel all in my mind
The frames which once so burned alive, but now find in the dark tonight of my mind

Paintings in oil cause the paintings once spoiled
Ruined for you and ruined for me
They don't seem to be or appear to me what they used to be

So deceive me and my being
So I know what shows in the mind of someone like you
Deceiver, believer of the devil himself
And I don't know what I'm doing wrong but for now I'll keep doing what I do
And making out of you this tale
That I tell to you for the truth