The Schizophrenic

Yeah,

I’m bout to bleed out my pain as i rap this verse,
I’m bout to call my lightskin to tell her she’s my world,
To reassert that I’m the Diamond to her shining pearl,
Unfurl,
That’s the motion my heart makes, the sight of her leaves me shook,
Inspiration for my ideas, i don’t need to write a hook,
Line after line, the content of my book: is laced with her love, she’s mine so don’t you dare give that girl a look,
There are times when our relation may appear irrational,
Times we trade insults but not proof we’re compatible,
I guess these petty squabbles are impractical but don’t mistake that for incompatibility, the thought of me leaving her is just so laughable & silly,
We go to bed @ night, we could be fresh off a fight, but she’s cuddled up under me just squeezing me tight,
We wake up in the morning, her face is displaying a visible plight so i immediately assume that something isn’t right,
I might, get my shawty ring,
Alright, ain’t but a thing to get you that white gold bling,
Shine bright, her potential through the roof, to my side she clings, if she leaves it’ll sting so i take all the bad because the good - it also brings,
Yeah,
Like the ever changing tides, she has an ever changing dynamic,
I put up with the stress because who you fall in love with isn’t how you plan it,
Permission to make you happy? it’s granted,
Drop the bomb of the truth for detonation? it’s planted,
But then I’m shunned, given the side eyes so ever-slanted,
Like damn it,
Can i even make you happy?
Can you free the bonds that you set up for me to fall in & trap me?
Please look past what I’m lacking,

With that gave birth to the complete realization,
That putting a ring on your finger is a long shot situation,
I want to commit to you but i suffer from dire mitigation,
You slow my efforts with your persona sometimes without provocation,

But I’m still here, hard to drop like a bad habit,
I crave your attention, like those rabbits I must be rabid ,
We grew close very quickly, some would say it was rapid,
You can’t control who you’re attracted to, so the love may not be valid,
It’s like pulling teeth,
Forcing Barbie dolls to fornicate without an exchange of the parts,
The love was brief but it doesn’t mean that you have departed from my heart,
I wanted to pursue happiness but the futility of it all was apparent from the start, Mario kart,
Bumping heads like a head on collision,
This isn’t how I thought it would be nor how i saw it envisioned,
Now I’m malnourished, craving more, i need some provisions,
You cut me deep in my heart, it left an enormous incision,
But I’m still here,
I haven’t left like all those that you know in the past,
God will send you to first while they’re forever in the last,
I’ll do anything for you, what is there not to grasp?
I wish i could tighten my grip on you, but i have a faulty clasp,
To take you on a night out, i surely would cut class,
You’re so much more than your curvature in the front & the back,
I’ll gladly show you off, post pictures with hashtags, you make me want to be open so i always want to brag,
Despite your shortcomings,
Despite the aberrations,
For you, I’ll always come running & there won’t be hesitations,
There won’t be instigations,
Only blessings & savings,
I want to make you happy but you have to help me, we’re partners, we’re dating,
Will you switch on me & disappear?
Am I simply not enough?
I guess only time will tell, but i won’t call your bluff,
You’re a Diamond in the rough, but I’m here to pick you up & polish you,
Embrace my support don’t let the death of your paw paw demolish you,
I guess I shouldn’t speak like this, you just make me too comfortable,
Hopefully you don’t get mad at the fact that I put my frustrations in song, hopefully one day we can have a perfect life together & move on,

Yeah