Premonition

Insight
I been daydreaming under candlelight
Reflecting on the manic and depressive sides
I'll never be alright because I want to fucking die

I don't know, I don't know
I don't have the high tolerance, I'm fatherless
Days on end, I don't even know what time it is
I'm counterfeit, my soul: I bargained it with my spare change
Never ending pain, never going to change
So long

Talk shit about me that's bad rapport, use similes and the metaphors give a medal for it
I opened doors then I soiled my pure money fours
Like Tommy Egan in book four I'm sending shots with all the force
Consider who I am because I know they didn't give shreds of a damn for me
Honestly, purity's absentee, I don't have love, I don't have the capacity
Asking if I got here all of a sudden but this mental snap happened so fucking gradually
Actually, I've made up my mind and I couldn't care less for whatever will happen to me

I'm not alright
Making more scars with the kitchen knife
Depression's really hitting in the night time
Numb away this pain because I'm waiting for my life to give me

Insight
I been daydreaming under candlelight
Reflecting on the manic and depressive sides
I'll never be alright because I want to fucking die

I don't know, I don't know
I don't have the high tolerance, I'm fatherless
Days on end, I don't even know what time it is
I'm counterfeit, my soul: I bargained it with my spare change
Never ending pain, never going to change
So long

At first, they gave me Prozac, oh snap so I fucking retract, little did he know, I don't want that
Lay in the night time, "I want to die" time, yearn for the limelight, fight or flight response

Add it on, I'll take the charge
I'm in debt with these credit cards
Emotional like a fucking mother going through the stages of menopause, god damn

I'm hurting, look at the stars, I feel so lost, pause and get my fill of em
Hot to cold, brave not so bold, left right swing like a motherfucking pendulum
I don't even do drugs but I want to do something, I ain't really worth nothing, inject that fentanyl
I'm waiting, damn

I'm not alright
Making more scars with the kitchen knife
Depression's really hitting in the night time
Numb away this pain because I'm waiting for my life to give me