Metamorphosis

Wake up!
Condemn myself to REM,
I have zero friends, i don’t know where to begin, I’m listening to Tems in hopes to mend when i pretend.
Start the exorcism for my spirit cleanse,
Mind’s-a-tingling, my nerves are signaling, these childish things to be done, call me primitive,

Happiness diminishing,
Throwing coins in wells cause I’m wishing ‘em,
Give me an assist cause I’m dishing ‘em,

Corona got hold of, humanity’s shoulder, speaking in codes of, the dying world order,
They shot off the choppers, heavy metals & boppers, pass interfering the f’ing law & the coppers,

One day i wake a new man,
Determination on demand,
In the blink of an eye i could’ve give less of a damn,
Gracious, i am,
Spacious diaphragm,
At times i wish my lungs couldn’t hold air,

I don’t feel like a million dollars,
More like a million waddles,
I’m cripple just triple the medicine that i take in bottles,
Counterfeit these bitches be, hyping my name then turn around down me,
People wonder why i prefer to be alone in my chrysalis, reaping solitary benefits, i wish the Bible skipped Genesis,
But he didn’t, I’m trippin’, who trippin’? boy you sinning stop talking bout my name, drink on that Grigio you sippin’, forever i was giving, no longer doing forgiving,
& then i bust through the door,
Throw the clothes to the floor,
“where the hell is the gun?” i think i want to meet the lord,

Carpooling to my stop, “leave me at death’s door,”
I’m knocking I’m knocking let me embrace all the gore,
Mama says, “boy you more,”
Man to hell with that notion,
Moisturize the ashiness of my life with some lotion,
My faith is questionable, i don’t know bout devotion,
Like IT, I’m floating, like Drake, who’s joking?
Shit to say, outspoken,
Hold composure, provoking,
Wedding bands & vans full of kids, but who’s hoping?

Occasional stalking of social media, I’m trolling,
On a campus, I’m strolling,
How you move, i be knowing,
Where the f is my record deal? i could really be gloating,
Out here show-boating,
But i dead the promoting,
My heart, been broken,
Got me dying , I’m rolling,
Relieve the bad dream, everyday i been coping,
I’m gone